Watever or whoever is annoying gets good treatment from mi...

Customers who dragged my closing timing, kid who sat beside in a bus kept making noises and climbed up n down of the seat, the irritating clown music tv mobile is playing, the 2 teenagers sitting together in a bus and talked like they are sitting very far apart, the uncle who was walking slowly pushing the ntuc trolley blocking my way, surveyor who kept pestering mi when i was in a rush, receiving so many rubbish mails in my letterbox, the uncle who accidentally knocked mi on my back when he tried to get down form the bus, couples giggling happily in front of mi, people who kept smiling...

i m getting more impatient...






mayb i'm juz tired...

Yeahz, todae i finally went for my swim training after a long disappearance, and its our 1st training since sch reopens... I suddenly decided to go for training becos i wanna commit in it and get CCA points, not totally becos of those newbies (they are having swim trials todae), tt is juz part of the reason...

Kinda surprised to c so many newbies at the pool despite the heavy rain, i believe there will b more people if there is no rain...

But uncle louis started telling Hanrong off when Hanrong arrived. I dunnoe wat reallie happened but i noe one of the thing uncle louis nt happie about is tt we (jeremy, kah hian n mi) came back for training. Not tt he nt happie, is tt he doesn't like the wae we disappear n re-appear from trainings, without informing him. His issue about the whole thing is responsibility.

I understand how he feels, he's a coach, his job is to train us, but he oso nit to understand us mahz, i m supporting myself, i nit to work, how to commit in swimming? I had told Hanrong the 1st dae since i stepped into the swim team. Aiyahz mayb i'm juz out of point, but i noe uncle louis juz nit some respect ba, he wans us to inform him when we cannot make it to the trainings. I did informed, he doesn't noe, mayb uncle andy noes...

Han rong did nt cry, but I could c tears in his eyes. I felt so guilty. Anywae he's forgiving enough when i apologised to him. He said tt uncle louis was trying to find fault at him trying to say tt hanrong is incapable as a captain cos he himself oso disappeared from trainings for 7 weeks becos of work. luckily he is understanding enough to noe about my situation, he din blame us too...




The trials started, the newbies plunged into the pool swimming watever strokes they noe. Our job is to standby by the side juz in case ppl struggle we have to go help them.

I was wearing my top, in trunks waiting by the side of the pool when this particular gal, D swam using freestyle. From my view she was doing okokiez, but uncle louis suddenly shouted from his side saying "i ask u ppl to standby nt stand there n look, go down help the gal can anot?" Den JY who is the life guard turned to mi n try take off my top and asked mi to jump down help tt gal. When i was in the water den i realised she was actually struggling... I unerstand y JY did nt help the gal, he has his own reason...

Dunnoe larz, i din blame anyone, its my fault okokiez? i din c properly... I juz dun like to be shouted at like tt in front of so many ppl nia, but its nothing to mi, its nt like i nv kena scold b4, when i was in army its even worse... But one thing i dun understand, is y u dunnoe how to swim u nv inform the ppl at the starting point and y u have to swim at lane 2 when lane 1 is unoccupied...

Suan le, its over liaoz... Tml will b a better dae...



Anywae i've explained to uncle louis about my situation and he finally understand. I'm a person who's mood will b spoilt for the rest of the dae if something bad happened, tts y i hope tml faster come. Let mi sleep and forget...














"And if you take away the loving arms that surround me, then I might break down and cry just like a child...." -- [Like a child] by Backstreet boys.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want him to, it doesn't mean he/she doesn't love you with all he/she has.

4. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside him/her knowing you can't have him/her.

5. Don't waste your time on someone who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

6. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to begrateful.



The 4Cs I find important in a relationship :
CHEMISTRY
COMMUNICATION
COMPATIBILITY
CONTRIBUTION




Agree?? haha~~~ bleahz... a song for U~~~





[I Promise] by Stacie Orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes , will I be the one that's by your side?

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you.
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold, will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?

I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)

I suddenly remember something i muz comment about...

After working at TM, on the way home on bus 72, there were alot of ah nehz or should i call bangalas... They kept pressing the bell and the bus driver stopped at every bus stop. The bus driver knew somebody was playing, but he had to stop juz in case there is people who reallie wanna alight.

Den he started driving very slowly... I m already very giddy, not feeling well le, and the bus kept jerking and tt bloody bangala kept pressing the bell... i noe which one cos i saw him pressing the bell... damnz... I felt like going up to the bus driver and point to tt bangala saying "uncle he's tt bangala who kept pressing the bell"...

Chee beh, come singapore work still ji siao siao, Fuck off larz, go back to India or bangadesh larz.... oops sorrie, no offence, juz referring to tt bangala nia... i m nt racist wor~~








Lastly, TM's in charge Zell is a funnie guy, haha...













"突然很渴望在你身上 也找到我要的靠岸..." -- [靠岸] by 林宇中

I finally got to work at Tampines Mall... A place i noe yet not familiar.. i used to hang ard there, my sch was juz nearly...

It is far from my school, its about a 1 hr journey from nyp to TM, haha, can vomit lo... But i met 2 person whom i nv get to c for very long...




1st is Lta Zishan... I was having BK (tts y i hate working at other place cos i dunnoe where to get cheap and nice food) and he walked into the restaurant and waved to mi. Mayb i was too tired, i couldn't remember who he was when he waved but after i rememer... How can i forget him, he was my Platoon commander and i was his runner... Haha~~ he din change much. Managed to catch up a bit....


2ndly is Minghui, my 19 yrs gd frenz whom i 've known since kindergarten... Glad to noe tt he's studying at TP rite now... gd luck bro... meet up soon, k?



Back to work... i think i'm too exhausted liaoz, i kept doing the wrong things... Customer wans a M size pink tank top, i got a pink tee for her, so i changed for her, this time around i got the correct model but wrong size...

Felt so giddy towards the end of the job... I felt like flying back home, can't wait to lay on my bed....



I'm old liaoz, body cannot take it le... haha...












"I'll make love to U, like U wan me to, and i'll hold U tight, baby all through the night i'll make love to U, when U wan mi to...." -- [I'll make love to you] by Boyz II men

I am quite surprised that i managed to maintain my commitment in studying, and at the same time working... I force myself to get out of bed early in the morning, i force myself to listen to lecturers, i force myself to work, and i sort of glad i managed to convince myself to do those things... but i dunnoe how long it can last, i am getting tired, very tired...

I wun give up de, i wanna get a diploma with a merit... Dun try asking mi not to work, unless u wanna support mi... bleahz... the most i tired out myself and fall sick lo, haha... no larz, i wun let this happen, i m scared liaoz, the most i work lesser lo...





And i think i reallie has to work lesser liaoz, cos recently i think i do not have enough slp, den suffer from headache, stiff neck, and its kinda of connected becos of my nerves and veins, my right eyes hurts and when i try touching my hair, my head ache...

I reallie envy people who can go home straight right after school, i wanna slp i wanna nua at home, but my age to enjoy tt kind of life is over... Haiz, wat to do, i chose to continue my studies de....




Recently i fall in love with dance songs... clubbing songs i mean, be it techno, house music, trance etc etc...


I wanna blast KYLIE MINOGUE at fila junction 8....!!!!!!!!!!!!! MASTERBOY!!!!! bleahz....













"I'll be there for U, if U should need me, u dun need to change a thing......" -- [Nothing's gonna change my love for you] by George benson.

Recently met up with a fren who i have nv see for very long. Have a nice chat.

Found out from my fren tt we had been cheated and fooled by "someone" since the dae i got to noe "someone". Luckily i sort of like distanced myself from "someone" early, at least i'm smart to c "someone's" true colours b4 "someone" fool mi again...

"Someone" is reallie a great stories teller... "someone's" existence is a plot, all along "someone" can juz make up so many stories to cheat on us...

Mayb "someone" was sent by god to punish us?? cos we did alot of bad things...

*marco thinks hard.... wat bad things did he do??? eh... mayb he eats too much of ice-cream and chocolates liaoz... haha~~ bleahz...

But i definately wun b meeting up with "someone" anymore, if i c "someone" in the street, i sueh lo.... Sorrie guyz, i dun wish to mention "someone's" name, juz noe tt "someone" is a bastard can liaoz, dun ask mi for name...







Oh yahz, there's 2 more things people did which made mi looks and sounds like a fool...




If you have 10 questions to ask a fren, how will u send sms to ask him/her?

if u ask mi, i will type my 10 questions at one shot and send...

Y i brought this up...? its becos i have frenz who had many questions to ask but they typed their questions sms by sms... meaning 1 question in a sms... arrgghh... heyy, sms isn't free okokiez..?? can be smarter anot?

If one dae u ask mi questions sms by sms and suddenly i stopped replying or u receive a sms full of answers to the questions which u think u'll ask later, means i got irritated by u liaoz... bleahz... i dun wanna be a fool... actually i wun b so dao, i will nt reply sms but i will call u...

Save sms, save moeny k?? haha~~~






The other thing is those emotional people, becos of small misunderstanding which can be solved easily yet chose to ignore the other party.

I shan't say much about it, but nex time i c u in the street, i will nt call u up... I felt like a fool tt dae... No wonder u have no frenz, cos u dun give people chance... i believe there are bound to be misunderstandings among frenz de, all they nit to do is to understand one another and give one another chance... I did my part, now its up to u to choose.... I'll be here for u de, for everyone of my frenz...












"How my heart just frowns if you're down... I'll be your teddy bear, I'll be your clown. I'll take you round and round and if you don't mind I cound be your standing ground, even if that means I'd drown...." [Down] by JJ 林俊杰

Sianz until extreme liaoz... play puzzle....




Bleahz~~~~!!!!!!














"I knew i love U before i met U, i think i dream U into life. I knew i love U before i met U, i have been waiting all my life...." -- {I knew i love you] by Savage Garden.

Its a good fridae and yet i m so bored~~~



I dun like holidaes, i dun like weekends... makes mi bored~~~ bleahz~~~!!!!



I wan to jog... My mum threw away my running shoes, the one which had accompanied mi thru my 2 yrs of Hell in army, which i had worn for my ippt to get gold de, which had accompanied mi to 3 countries for army trainings b4...

Now dun have running shoes cannot jog liaoz... All i have r sneakers, wear sneakers to jog is funnie... bleahz~~~




I wan to swim and tan... But god doesn't allow mi to... It has been raining since noon time, and it hasn't stop yet, sianz half...

I miss the sun....




I wan to take buses all round singapore... Yeahz, one of my favourite pastime, but i'm still here updating my blog...

wahaha, nonsense... bleahz....






Ohhh yahz, i'm not totally programless, later i'll b celebrating gary's bdae... and i juz found out from friendster april 14th is not a gd dae, wahaha... y nehz, becos this dae is a birthdaeful dae...

So many people i noe r celebrating the special dae todae... People like our dearest "casanova" gary, jiahao, corrin, hanzhong and elizabeth.... Luckily other than gary, i'm nt close to the others, wahhaa...


The other nt so good dae is on the 21st april... got 3 celebrating their bdaes on the same dae, Marcus, zhonglun and chuanxiong... all from fila...

oopss... i dunnoe anything wor... 21st i'll b going oversea... Bleahz~~~~





Haha... i bleahz so much... Decided to create a bleah company...

call it bleaher company.com ba~~~ haha~~ u guyz can c how stupid and idiot a person gets when he is bored...

N yeahz i'm recruiting people... currently i have 3 members in my company...


Bleaher company.com
1. Sandee pig, the pink bleaher
2. Mr huang, the yandaoz bleaher
3. Samuel, the squint-eyed bleaher


wahaha... I'm searching for potentials to join my company to bleah with mi... who wanna join lemmi noe wor, come for interviews... dotz... haha~~~







Haiz... so many things i wanna buy, but no money lehz...

i wan a topman wallet, nike/adiddas running shoes, handphone pouch, POA bag... so many things..

Dear god lemmi strike lottery somedae.... please....

bleahz~~~ i dun buy lottery anywae, wahaha... nonsense!!! wahaha~~~


My bdae coming... 1 more month wahaha... heyy guyz, its another 30 more daes to Mr yandaoz plus cutie plus handsome plus prince charming plus gorgeous plus gd looking plus pretty plus beautiful Marcus Lee's bdae, dun forget wor...

No time go shopping, gimme ang bao i oso happie, wahaha....

Bleahz... dun tell mi u going oversea on my dae horz, its not going to work lorz... think of something new pls... haha...






I hate boredom...


i m happie, yet i m nt happie...
i feel so empty yet i feel so occupied...
i can't wait till sch reopen yet i dun wan it to reopen so soon...

bleahz.....

so bored.....










"I wanna your lover, i wanna your man, 我只希望给你多一点. Can you be my lover, don't wanna be your friend, 给你幸福每一天....." -- [数到五答应我] by 曹格

Do you reallie know yourself well?

Well, i cannot reallie give a good answer to that question, cos sometimes when i think i understand myself, it may not be accurate, a lot of question marks will pop out, asking myself whether is this the way i wan my idea marcus to be, or it is already wat i am... Its true lorz, how can one judge himself??





0kokiez, i shall tell u guyz more about wat i think i m, and u guyz judge whether it is wat u guyz think about me...


I'm a short guy, with a big head, a small body with a big tummie... The way i talk is as if i'm retarded. I oso dunnoe how to explain, i kinda speak word by word from a sentence, its like there're fullstops after every word. And i think i sound like a duck... haha~~

Aiyahz I'm juz a simple guy lohz...





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Not enough??


Haha okokiez, i'm actually more than that...

I may look kiddish, but i m definately not childish... Becos i always think that people will look at me and treat me as a kid, which made mi feel very irritated, tts y i'll make sure i behave like an adult...

As i get older i always think alot b4 i do things. I think i m quite sensible lo, i noe wats important and will try nt let things affect my mood easily.

I live in little world of mine... U can find mi day dreaming quite often, up to the extend tt when u're standing nex to mi and talk, i dun even noe tt u're talking to mi.

I used to believe in best fren, and i used to rely on them alot. I treated my best frenz as if they're my gf, i could live without other frenz. But something happened which totally changed my thinking and now, everyone is my gd frens, all r equal juz that how close u r to mi which make the difference.

I'm not those straight forward kind of person. When someone ask u "am i pretty?", i will say "yes", even if she's not reallie very pretty, i will say "not bad". I dun wanna hurt their feelings.. And when i dislike someone, i still talk to them cos u dislike them doesn't mean they dislike u...

I'm easy to pacify and is forgiving. (my vocab is kinda limited i can't think of the appropriate word so i use pacify which gary suggested. wat i mean is "hông" in han yu ping ying) U can make mi very angry, and u juz nit to do some sweet talking to me and u're forgiven. ohh god, y m i like tt....?






Towards frenz, all i wan is understanding...

I'm greedy and selfish... I wan to make alot new frenz and yet i dun wanna lose my old frenz...

I noe who're my true frenz i dun nit people to choose for mi, and if i'm no longer close to u doesn't mean u're nt my true frenz, cos i'm the kind of person who will be closer to people in my environment, example sch n work...

If u reallie understand mi, u're nt get jealous over this kind of thing... To make it clear i'm juz a fren of urs, not ur boyfriend or girlfriend... sounds like i'm referring to someone huh?? haha, yesh i'm referring to xxxx xxxxx.

Everyone can say "hey, Ziguo/Marcus is a gd fren of mine...", i m very happie to hear tt, but i think i'm a gd fren that is not very gd. Every stage of ur life there are different frenz u made, and when i reach this stage, i seldom contact the frenz i've made in the previous stage... But that doesn't mean i forgot about them, juz tt mayb i'm too busy or wat, but once in a while i'll still send sms to ask about them de... I'll try to change for the better to be a gd fren...





Towards love, all i wan is attentions.

When love is in my mind, nobody can take over easily...

U nit nt stay with mi all the time, occassionally juz sms mi when we're not together and tt will brighten up my dae le. I think i'll do alot of stupid things for love, haha...

Aiyahz, i'm a fool when i fall in love... arrgghh...

But dun ever play with my feeling cos i think i dun deserve that, and when it happens, it gonna take a long time to heal... I'll be freaking emotional, i noe tts nt gd, i'll change too...





Towards my family, all i wan is freedom and understanding.

Noting much, all i wan is support and encourage mi in watever i do. It simple and easy.

I have a happie family, nothing much to ask for... =>









Dunnoe its all true anot...

Anywae i asked some of my frenz to do some quiz about mi and the outcome is...

friendly (67%)
trustworthy (35%)
cheerful (32%)
independent (28%)
self-conscious (28%)
energetic (25%)

Haha... kinda true... i m super friendly, and wat makes mi happie is, i'm trustworthy!!!! haha... Aiyahz all u guyz nit to noe is i m a happie person, but i'm nt energetic lo...



I oso asked some of my frenz about mi...

I have ppl saying that i'm innocent, guillible and naive... some saying that i treat ppl too gd, always sending wrong signals to ppl, make them fall in love with mi... did i? some say i look like gay (jane!!! u said tt!!!!), innocent and guai... some say i'm a xiao da ren (small adult)...

M i like wat they say??




i dunnoe lehz....







Wanna noe come find out urself lo... bleahz....










"如果你愛我 你會來找我, 你會知道我 快不能活, 如果你愛我 你會來救我, 空氣很稀薄 因為寂寞....." -- [氧氣] by 范曉萱

Beautiful -- Kel

I don't know if i am the one for U in this life
I can't help hearing my voice calling your name
Cos when i'm trying so hard not to look in your eyes
Maybe i've fallen in love with U

I can't so describe how i'm feeling deep inside
So much more than i can say with your touch it feels so right
Oh mine U're so near all the time in this place
For I know in my heart i will never let U go in this lifetime
Do U know why oh baby~~
Cos U're just so beautiful to me

Well tonight, maybe this time i can hear U breathe
Its alive to see U smile with the tears in your eyes
They may say that U're just a girl in this spinning world
In my heart U're like the world to me

Touch my hand, feel my heart
Hold me close and U'll find me
U'll find me

So beautiful to me

I juz received my timetable...

KNS!!!!!! earliest i can leave sch is 3pm!!!!!

Aiyahz, i kinda expected it to be packed but nv think it would be tt jialat... I accept tt, cos i noe in life, we'll have to learn to give and take... Yesh i'll give up my freedom to work... I'm supporting myself wor, so no choice...





And thats not the worst part, the worst is i got into French class again!!!!! aarrrggh...



At 1st i check the modules registered from e-service, i was so happie i got into "innovation computing"... Den todae i check my timetable, it had been changed to "french language 2"!!!!!

I once heard Mallard saying that only those people who has good grades for french will take french 2 and now i kena~~!!!! wat the... I got a C for french, Jeslyn got A, she is nt taking french anymore... And my 2 french buddies not taking french anymore... arrgghh... no more motivation to go french class liaoz... sianz...




Thursdae go apply for opt out, hopefully it will b successful if not i'll have to struggle liaoz... haiz...









I will study hard hard de... juz for U!!!!










"好想要 See U See U See U, 要一起拥着这一生的幸福, 没有谁能拦阻, 我看到爱情的轮廓, My Love So True...." -- [爱情轮廓] by Evonne 许慧欣.

Happie these few daes...



Becos Ah zai messaged mi saying that PS Hwee chong wans a gethering.

Yesh, meeting up with my platoon mates is always one of my wish(c my wishlist), i have alot to catch up with them... think meet one time is not enough de, but nvm, our reservist daes will b coming soon, i will get to hang around with them for at least a 5 daes, n i'm willing to skip sch for 5 daes juz to go for my reservist de...

Tho the gathering was cancelled in the end, i wasn't tt sad becos i noe there will b another one coming up within these few daes, i'll b waiting wor...





Becos Ah lam finally called mi...

Yesh, he owed mi money, and when i nit money i messaged him he din replied. I was kinda disappointed with him not becos he owed mi money n haven't return yet, its tt he can juz avoid mi like tt. That time i reallie nit money if not i wouldn't have sms him to return. I dun care about the money lorz, i dun care how long u take to return, its the frenship that matters, u noe...?

And he called mi, proving to mi that he's nt reallie avoiding mi, tho he did. Anywae i'm happie enough he called... =>




Becos Zhi wei is finally released from the drug centre (i dunnoe wats the exact name).

Yesh, he was locked up at drug centre almost 2 years ago becos he was guilty for possessing drugs. And now that he was released form there, he juz has to finish serving the rest of his 2 yrs of ns and no more detention barrack.

And he finally apologised to mi for wat he had done to mi and our platoon in the past. Its okokiez, bro, its all history liaoz, free come out for kopi wor...




Becos i was posted to PS to work.

Yesh, Chia yee is finally back from her attachment at Ipoh and is now attached to PS branch as 1st in charge. And i have to go work with her.

Haha~~ i kinda miss her u noe, wahaha... And she treated mi quite well when i was there... => Mayb its true she seldom scold guyz, and furthermore i'm yandaoz and cute, she wouldn't bear to scold mi one lorz, wahaha...





Becos i finally got a raised in pay.

Yesh, i have been waiting for this dae to come. I think i deserve it ba, wahaha... dunnoe lehz, but i noe i got do my part de lorz... U wan mi to greet customers i greeted, u dun wan mi to wear earrings i take off, u dun wan mi to wear my adiddas watch to work i nv wear, u wan mi to take over ppl's place to work i take etc etc, all i did without making any noise... where to find this kind of employee, rite?





Becos weekend is approaching.....

Yesh, i hope to mit U. Reallie miss U lorz... haiz... please appreciate...










"如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你 你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你..." -- [勇气] by 梁静茹 / 光良

If i were to have kids, and if they are still too young to reallie understand wat we are talking about, i will definately not bring them along for tour...






Y i bring this up, its becos i encountered kids in plane in the flight back to singapore...


I'm already very gan cheong and scared taking the flight, and that kid kept crying n crying n crying... arrrgggh~~~ made mi more frustrated...



Luckily ours was juz a 4 hrs flight, nt reallie very long... But imagine u're taking a overnight flight, u nit to slp and there's kids crying, will u enjoy the flight...?

Y those airline companies never come up with "flight with no kids" package....?





Not that i dun have Ai xin, i do love kids, when they dun cry... But u have to b considerate wat... Care about ur kid or all the others hundreds of people on the same plane???

The most wait till ur kid grows up a bit den bring him/her to tour lorz...