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Ivan: "Why you look so sad? You always look very sad....." Joanne: "Its very easy to noe how you are feeling rite now, you juz show it on ur face..." Shupz: "Ehh you have tummie eh...." And now i'm suffering from serious coughing, sore throat and flu, again... Its time to change!!! I wanna be happie go lucky. I wanna be the apple of everyone, like wat Dennis told me when i was in sec sch. I wanna become very fit, as if i'm still serving the ns. Get rid of the fugly tummie which made mi looks like an african refugee kid. I wanna take very gd care of my body cos I think i muz have been taken my health for granted. Its barely 2 months since i recovered from cough, sore throat and flu, now i got them again. My resolutions for the brand new yr. =)
I heard from Serene that her brother's fren, Z's photo was posted onto Stomp, because he slept on mrt. A pregnant lady shot a photo of him becos she got no seats. The pregnant lady was so unreasonable!!!!!!!!!! 1st of all, Z was sleeping, how would he noe tt she was standing in front of him. If all seats were occupied, den the photos of those people who were sitting and awake should be posted to Stomp instead. Only bully people cos she thinks she's pregnant. 2ndly, having people giving up their seats for her is a privilege, becos she is pregnant. If she can get a seat, den sit lo, if she cannot, den stand lo. Government courages people to give up seats to needies, but they never say they will fine u if you din give up your seats, its not a law! Furthermore everybody pays the same amount of mrt fare, so whether you stand or sit depends on your luck. But im sure if Z werent sleeping, he'll give up his seat to her. Lastly, she got pregnant and became a needy, she can only blame herself or her husband. Z is not cause of your pregnancy, he doesnt owe her anything. I still think that if you're a needy and u have gotten those privileges, its a bonus, people are kind. But if you din get the privileges, you oso cannot blame others, people are juz not as kind. Sorrie, i noe im mean, but tt pregnant lady is juz taking advantages of the fact tt she's pregnant and is a needy to bully sleeping people!!! Not fair!!
I was on the way home on mrt when i overheard some boys who are serving the NS rite now, think they are either officers or specialise. A: "I can clique very well with my men, all having the same frequency, easy to communicate." B: "Mine too, but mine are those NOT EDUCATED ppl......" Idiot, somehow i feel so offended!!!!! He was referring to people from mono intake. What the hell, he definiately has problem with us? FYI, i was a lump of shit from mono intake too. I juz hope one dae all his men rebel against him, den he will see the importance of not looking down on people. Some people just nit to learn.
Life is back to normal, so normal that i cant get used to it. Everyday i just wake up, work, home and slp. Just dun feel like going out before or after work. Todae at work, i heard the song "Is it over now" (my blog song) by tanya chua. It says tt "letting go is never easy", and it kept mi thinking about it. I was thinking if one day i have to migrate to another country alone, will i be able to let go of everything i have in singapore? Lets not just say about migrating, how about going to other country to work for like 5 yrs, will i be able to just go without worrying the things i left behind in singapore? Who's gonna take care of my parents? What about my friends, are we going to lose contact with one another just like that? Imagine how your parents will feel? They will encourage you. They love you too much, they want you to do well, but inside they are struggling. How about relationship... When u and your partner quarrel with each other, or your partner/you find that both of you are not suitable or compatible to be together, or your partner/you have better plans in life that you have to leave each other, will you be able to let go? What if its a relationship of 10 yrs? 5 yrs or even 1 yr? How will you partner feel? She/he loves you too much that they dun wanna stop you from pursuing better future, and inside they are struggling. Letting go is very difficult and people who are able to do so are brave. Its not just you alone, people around you are affected too. After letting go, you'll have to cope. Coping is never easy too. You let go, you can cope, people around you may not be able to. Most of the time, its a selfish decision. It's just another emo entry. Anywae the walk home from bus stop with Alan was a gd one, we chatted quite a bit. He has been through what i'm going through now, we understand how each other feel.
The shit is back. I'm so happie that i managed to complete the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon, my 1st marathon. Nothing amazing though, cos even old aunties and uncles ran faster than me. My timing was 5:48:10. It was quite gd already i must say cos i din have any training at all. The run was so tiring i tot i would give up. During the run, i couldn't even walk when i stopped running. Now im suffering from muscles ache. Once i reached home at around 230pm, i slept after i bathed. Woke up at 8pm for dinner, and went back to sleep until todae 8am. I slept like a pig, or rather a lump of shit. Next to come will be "Safari zoo run" and "Adidas Sun down 2009". Who wanna go with mi?
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