What am i?
Its been a shitty week for me. I have never experience such shit and shitty feeling before.
I flunked my exams. Even though ppl may say that as long as many others cannot do the paper, i do not have to worrie cos they will moderate the results. But i did the paper, i noe how badly i've done. As i told my frenz, in polytechnics i did so well, but when i go to ntu,what am i???? I'm juz a lump of shit.
The other thing tt made mi feel so shitty was to wait and anticipate and wait and anticipate and wait and anticipate.......... Damnz, i applied for bursary and i waited for them to process my application. They emailed me saying tt they had accepted my application so i have to wait again for them to process my cheque. I waited and i waited and what i get in the end? They told mi they decided to reject my application becos the competition for the limited number of scholarships is very keen. Then why in the 1st place they accepted mi????!!!!
I'm alright without the bursary, the most i work more. Wat else can i do, tts my shit life.
People juz treats me like shit! Made me wait like some shit in the toilet bowl waiting for ppl to flush them away. I juz can't help but to keep saying that i feel so shitty. I feel so natural. Oh i nearly forgotten that i'm a lump of shit.
I am shit.
I flunked my exams. Even though ppl may say that as long as many others cannot do the paper, i do not have to worrie cos they will moderate the results. But i did the paper, i noe how badly i've done. As i told my frenz, in polytechnics i did so well, but when i go to ntu,what am i???? I'm juz a lump of shit.
The other thing tt made mi feel so shitty was to wait and anticipate and wait and anticipate and wait and anticipate.......... Damnz, i applied for bursary and i waited for them to process my application. They emailed me saying tt they had accepted my application so i have to wait again for them to process my cheque. I waited and i waited and what i get in the end? They told mi they decided to reject my application becos the competition for the limited number of scholarships is very keen. Then why in the 1st place they accepted mi????!!!!
I'm alright without the bursary, the most i work more. Wat else can i do, tts my shit life.
People juz treats me like shit! Made me wait like some shit in the toilet bowl waiting for ppl to flush them away. I juz can't help but to keep saying that i feel so shitty. I feel so natural. Oh i nearly forgotten that i'm a lump of shit.
I am shit.
Feel me in stereo @ 3:45 AM
2 Comments:
Think of the positive side, even though it's always not easy to do so. Murphy's law often take place, whatever can go wrong will go wrong. But if you take it at a more optimistic way, it'll be better and say to yourself that things happen for a reason. Don't be disheartened and cheer up! =)
Jia you!
I think its only fair to agree with you that what you are going through is damn tough esp to deal with the disappointment of the stupid busary thing. But I also see that you been through alot in life to bring u where u are today. I think u struggled hard thru work and schooling in poly too. It's apparent it left u broken sometimes. But i see a stronger person in you through it all.
Kenny
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